this past few weeks is one of the most down period in my life. my heart feels very heavy.
everyone is involve in their fuckin maple story.
her depression is also affecting me very badly.
no slots for the fuckin eoy chalet.
band, no one seems to share my passion.
plus fuckin tp exams and fuckin losing games doesnt help me much either.

i hope i will feel better after typing this out. because my heart is really really really heavy.
i just realised theres no one there to share this pain with me. everybody is laughing with me when we are having fun though. im tearing my heart out every night, whacking myself on my head and saying "get a grip you fucking bastard". i will not break down.

down,down,down,down,down
it gets me so.

is joey really a friend to you all? or is he just a playmate?
someone please pat me on the back.
its...fucking...painful...

fuck everyone and everything.
fuck your mothers and your fathers.
fuck your pet, fuck your cartoon characters.
fuck you.