Sunday, January 14, 2007 @7:31 AM
Powerful Surge
alright first post of the new year. time to change the headlining style.
today was a fantastic day really, i havent felt so good and good again for such a fuckin long time. two things really, that fuckin filling fantastic Amara Hotel's high tea and this fucking rocking jamming session today.
this past few weeks was back to the same old routine of people doing their own stuffs like maple (HO big big surprise!), school stuffs and more school stuffs. singapore is like an ant's nest. work,work,work and work until the day you die you are still working. thats why only 5% people in singapore bothered to pursue their dreams. im like damn bo chup about school already but i still need to fuckin graduate no matter what. she seems better this few weeks and im like damn fucking happy about it =D
but what im really sad about is...i think i might have been given false hopes again. hmmm i cant blame them though, people share different dreams and ambitions. if i needed to blame something i gotta blame my fucking self, im fucking demanding dammit. rofl i sound damn act cool sia, like those serials where actors always blame themselves. but 1 fuckin thing i can confirm is that i belong to that world. its the only thing in life i find worthwhile. the feeling is like, you feel so dead at times but when you pick up your gear and start doing it, you feel this fuckin powerful surge goes into you. AND thats the fuckin time when you know you gotta fuckin do this for the rest of your fuckin life.
this is totally not an empty dream.
its more like an empty goal waiting to be filled.
today's jamming session really brought me back to life and made me look forward to loads of stuff in future. its really about the only thing i will wanna do. but im really confused right now whos in the battle with me, or am i just only?
no who fuckin cares, people who shares the same ideals will fuckin fight together. its the big 18 this year. time to put words into actions rather then giving empty prep talks or motivation talks that never come true like what im writing now. i wont wait till my bones turn to dust. i want it now like how a rapist fuckin wants pussy.
all i wanna know is are you in with me? or out?
*say anything, but say what you mean