Monday, May 14, 2007 @11:46 AM
THE SAME OLD FEELING
my blogger has some problem and im unable to do any editing or whatsoever so i'll just make my point in this post.
nothing has changed at all.
if you people think the world has changed, you are wrong. yes people talk about life, giving some smart alec comments or sentences hoping he or she can give the world some hope when he or herself cant even cope with their fuckin lives. if you really close your eyes and think about, you cant find serenity anywhere. my heart isnt peaceful at all. its sort of like a home to hate,fear,paranoia and jealousy. maybe listening to saosin and circa survive is worsening my condition or maybe im just a plain idiot trying to convince myself im a fucker.
the emotion i would really feel right now is the word "missing". missing as in missing you and not a missing person.
i missed the navy blue pants and white collared shirt.
i missed the scuffle of queueing for reccess.
i missed the sound of balls bouncing in the dusty court.
i missed the pure laughter without any malice or sacarsm in it.
i missed freedom.
i missed peace.
so i really want to know, are we, the human beings of this world still here? or have we drifted each into our own indivdualistic selfish worlds?
do the petals of flowers fall onto the ground without any regrets?
do you speak to me without a knife behind you?
do you walk beside me with malice and intentions?
profound english, swearing, chinese language, or whatever. as long it can be commune through, i wanna let people know, today.
joey felt loneliness.
even when people are laughing around me.