Thursday, September 27, 2007 @11:15 AM
Dont See Coffin Dont Shed Tears
A direct translation from a chinese phrase. it practically means, you will only shit on your pants when you are in a real crisis. or else, you are just fucking your life around.
despite my claims, despite my craps, despite my resolution. im back to fucking square one. not because im gonna get kick out of school actually, its really because i dont know how to face my parents. all along they think im an ok student in poly coping damn bloody well. how are they going to react when they find out im going bring them down there to beg for my appeal? if only i can get through this stage one more time. im praying to whatever god that exist out there, let me still be able to sign in to my student account by next thursday.
im not going to self-console. and thanks to the people who tell me im going to be fine, it really makes me feel much better though i know whats gonna come. anw kudos to weizhe, survive in tp for me k.
50% chance. i will not eat,sleep or shit well for the next 1 week. fuck it.
FUCK THIS HEAVY FEAR.
*say anything, but say what you mean
Tuesday, September 11, 2007 @10:43 AM
Opportunitiesfirst of all i dont like cockroaches and i just stepped on one a few minutes ago in the lift. okay maybe thats something unnecessary and random to say in this post.
despite the rainy weather, im feeling very good today. im really feeling nice for the first time in a long long time. i went to check out home club with xinyi today with willy as our guide. met a guy name chris whos almost identical to my mentor in nydc andrew. they are so fucking alike in their personality, jack of all trades and best of all fucking fucking fucking friendly and nice. i decided i wanted to work there and i hope this friday's interview would be smooth. or i would say my journey in this place would be smooth-sailing.
however this isnt really the real deal of opportunity. you know we have read about autobiographies or watch tv shows of life journey, about some kid in life who lost his way and later end up meeting someone or something that changes his life until he becomes somebody in the end?
opportunities, the movie evan's almighty said that god gives us opportunities instead of what we want. thats something i agree though im not a big fan of religion.
so the first move in this chess game has been played, spread my wings and let me step out.
*say anything, but say what you mean